Happy Birthday Mom!!!!

Happy Birthday Mom!!!!!!  I hope you have as wonderful day as you are!!!!  Enjoy your dinner with Daddy and I am looking forward to dinner with the whole family on Sunday!

I love you!

Here we go again...

I am back on the wagon!  It has been 2 days, but I am back on the diet!  I think I can! I think I can!

For those of you who are interested in being on a healthy diet and lose weight at the same time, let me share with you  my menu... its delicious (insert sarcastic comment here)

BREAKFAST:
Bowl of Oatmeal (one packet)
Coffee (can't live without the stuff!)

SNACK:
Greek Yogurt with a handful of granola.

LUNCH:
4oz of chicken
1 Cup of Rice
You can add a salad too with 2 grams of fat or less dressing...

SNACK:
Low Carb Bar (less than 2 or 3 carbs.)

DINNER:
4 Oz of Protein (preferably chicken or fish.  Although I did have pork last night)
All the veggies you can eat!
Salad with 2 grams or less of dressing

DESSERT:
None... ha ha just kidding. On this diet you can have a Jello Cup, although I do try to avoid it.  For instance last night I had a piece of gum.

How can I not lose weight on this diet???? Seriously!

Did I mention I have to go to Chicago on business next week?  That is going to be a challenge!

Off to A Rocky Start

So I thought I could do this... turned out, I suck at dieting.  Where is the mind set that I had 6 years ago?  I was perfect!  Lost so much weight that I was actually told to stop losing!  And that I was too skinny!  I never agreed with that, but I liked it!

But now 14 days into the new year and I am starting my diet, again... tomorrow.  All I really have to do it be really good for a month, maybe two at the most!  And then I would be happy about my weight.  Hopefully!  probably!

So tomorrow is it.  Tomorrow (which is Saturday, BTW) I start the diet.  Oatmeal for breakfast, Greek yogurt for a snack, chicken and rice for lunch, low carb for a snack and then chicken a veggies for dinner.  I can do this. Right?

It's A Brand New Year

And what does a brand new year usually mean????? A brand new diet.  I hate this time of year.  I hate going to the gym because everyone and their brother has decided that it is time to head back to the gym as well.  Even those who last visited last January.  Don't get me wrong... I give you kudos for heading back, I would be more impressed if you stayed throughout the year and did not hog up the weights pretending you know what you are doing. 

But my problem is I struggle with my weight.  There.  I said it.  I normally keep that kind of stuff to myself.  If one were to look at me, they probably do not think that I have a weight issue. 99% of the clothes in my closet are a size 4.  The other 1% make up the one pair of Size 2 slacks from Anthropologie (That I love and yes, can still fit into...) and the one pair of size 6 slacks, that I have to admit, are a lot more comfortable than I would like them to be.

Now I know what you are all thinking.... I should be sooo happy that I am a size 4.  Well the problem is, I look at myself and think, how in the world do I fit into a size 4?  To me, I always look at myself and think that I need to lose weight.  Unfortunately, this started very early on in my adult life.  I had a boyfriend who eventually became a husband always always made me feel bad about my appearance.  Always telling me I should not eat this and should not eat that.  It sucked and hurt me so badly, that years and years later I still struggle with it.  Eventually about 10 years into our relationshp I hit my largest size... 10.  I was mortified.  He started working out with a trainer and I started too as well.  I lost almost 30 pounds and at my skinniest I wore a size 2 consistantly.  I loved the way I looked back then.  I have gained about 10 of those pounds back over the last 6 years since I have been away from him and although those 10 pounds only attributed to one pant size, I am still haunted by them.  I had always wished he would think I was beautiful no matter what.  I knew that was not true.  Maybe the day I left him he thought that, but I seriously doubt it. If he always thought I was beautiful, would we still be together?  Probably not.  We had other issues.  But I didn't realize how fat he thought I was until I lost weight.

And even now, I am with a man who is extremely physically fit.  He even likes going to the gym.  He actually thinks it is fun!  I wish I shared his enthusiasm.  But I go, because I have to, not cause I want to.  And it is time we get to spend together, since I do his workout. And I still think to myself, does Rich think I am too fat?  He would never say it (and hopefully never think it!) but I struggle with it.  I look in the mirror and go, yuck...  he doesn't want to have a fat wife.

So tomorrow starts back on the strict diet.  6 days of eating clean, 1 day of cheating.  the menu is pretty basic... Oatmeal for breakfast. Protein Bar (or yogurt) for a snack, chicken and a cup of rice for lunch, a low carb item for a snack and then 4 more oz of protein with veggies and a salad for dinner.  Sounds delicious right?  The thing is, I know I can lose 10-15 pounds just by eating like this for a month.  So I just need to suck it up and do it.....

So check back with me in 30 days from now... hopefully I will be a few pounds lighter... I just wonder when will I ever feel I don't have to diet???  Will that ever happen?

Daisy Play Day!!!

Daisy loves going to the dog park, so Rich and I took her yesterday.  Thought we would share a few of her favorite moments....



Nope... I didn't poop.  But just in case I did, I am going to cover up the evidence!

 

These are my new friends.  I call them Big White and Little White.

Yeah, we are all good friends.

No, Daddy, I don't want to go home! So I am just going to ignore you and walk away!

Alright I will go home now.

Our last night of 2010

Before dinner.  Look Rich is almost as tall as the tree!  And I am almost as tall as him in my 4" heels!

Daisy looks so scary with her glowing eyes!  But she loves her daddy!

Our perfect family.

Our first New Year's as Husband and Wife.  How in the world will 2011 be as good as 2010?

Daisy and Mommy.....  My constant companion since she came into my life 9 years ago.  I love this little doggy more than words can say!

Daisy asking me for a kiss!  My first new year's kiss!

 

We decided to have dinner at the place the started it all.... our marriage that is.... Dinner at Roy's!

Before- Chandon Rose... My Favorite!



And After... My favorite is gone.... :-(

We had such a wonderful New Year's.  The Laker's won... and I got a kiss from my favorite man at midnight.  What more can a girl ask for?????

I still ask... how in the world can 2011 top 2010????  I guess we will see.